a person skilled or specializing in healing arts; especially one (as a physician, dentist, or veterinarian) who holds an advanced degree and is licensed to practice, a medicine man.
Skilled... there's a good word. I had a client who was an anesthesiologist once tell me a disturbing joke. it went like this:
Q: What do you call a Dr who graduated at the bottom of his class?
A: Doctor.
So, while the term skilled could apply to passing medical school by the seat of your pants, or knowing how to be successful in business by talking out of your ass, I would rather it be applied to the proficient, able bodied, capable and intelligent person who cares more about the wellness of their patients than the amount of money in their pockets.
As for specializing in healing arts, if they can't throw a medical band-aid of prescription medication at what ever is going on with you, they toss you to the side and tell you you're crazy, that there's nothing they can do for you and that you need to go for a psych eval because you're obviously creating your symptoms somehow.
I've seen almost two dozen Dr's since April 2012. My PCP, ENT, neurologists, neurotologist, endocrinologist, ophthalmologist, neurosurgeon, neuroendocrinologist, urgent care dr's, and ER Dr's. 99% of them have been useless, uninformed, and unwilling to admit that this cyst could be causing any problems. I've left many appointments in tears out of extreme frustration. I've had the Dr's that refuse to look at the lengthy paperwork you just spent half an hour filling out, ones that only want your top 3 symptoms (cuz that's the best way to get an accurate diagnosis...Smh), ones that tell you at the beginning of the appointment that they don't believe your symptoms are neurologically related, ones that try to convince you that what you're feeling isn't REALLY what you're feeling.. (seriously, I think I know what I am or am not feeling), ones that don't even introduce themselves before telling you they see a handful of pineal cysts every day and they never cause issues, the ones that avoid the topic altogether pretending that they didn't hear you or your complaints, ones that try to tell you it's pseudotumorcerebri (I'm sorry, but wtf is the cyst, if NOT a pseudotumor..?!), the ones who insist your balance problems are ear related -even tho all your tests are normal and your EAR-nose-throat Dr already ruled that out, the ones that are more interested in their Starbucks drink than your symptoms, the ones that patronize you, treat you like you're 5 years old, and avoid-deny-avoid-deny-avoid-deny until they're blue in the face... I asked this last neuro since he didn't believe any of my symptoms would be those related to the cyst, what symptoms WOULD be related then...And that's when he proceeded to pick up the paperwork he was writing on, ignored me asking the question a second time, and escorted me out of the office -appointment over.
And then we move on to the blatant lies they tell... like should your cyst show growth or change, then we need to be concerned. But in just 7 short months the MRI reports stated 30%
growth, and there is obvious changes in shape between MRI's that everyone can see (and not just with the cyst, but other significant areas in the brain)...except Dr's. So now the excuse is, well...it depends on the slice, who measured it, etc... Yeah. I bet it also depends on who sneezed, what time of day, if it rained on the plains in Spain, if the radiologists best friends grandmother's goldfish died that day...the list goes on! I just don't understand why they refuse to consider the possibility that this foreign object, something that isn't naturally occurring or supposed to be there, is an issue. I've been told that my symptoms aren't neurological, that stress is causing my symptoms, that this is nothing to be concerned about, that what I'm feeling isn't REALLY what I'm feeling... I'm sorry, you're not in my body, you can't possibly tell me what I am or am NOT feeling. Stress may amplify my symptoms, but it isn't what CAUSED my symptoms. And, I guarantee if this was in their heads, their daughter or sister or mother's heads, they would take it more seriously!
Why did they even bother to get into medicine, if they refuse to accept and acknowledge suffering in people..? Just because it isn't common, doesn't mean it doesn't exist. If one more Dr tells me, "I can tell you what you DON'T have, but I don't know what's wrong with you...but it's definitely NOT the cyst!" and "good luck!", I might just punch 'em!!!!
In the meantime, I'm continuing my search for someone to believe me, someone to fix this, and to prove the rest all wrong! Cuz when I have proof that this was causing issues, I WILL be returning to EVERY Dr who laughed at me, dismissed me, and insinuated I'm crazy, and give them a HUGE piece of my mind!
Seriously, do I have to be on my death bed before a Dr will actually listen and DO something?! The longer they wait for hydrocephalus to set in nice and big, the more they are compromising my brain!! It should be considered malpractice and medical negligence to be treated as disrespectfully as I have been treated on such a consistent basis!
Doctor.
Hmph.
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